我的地盘，我的言论，我的自由！

Thriller Nite at Maison~

2009-11-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

Its was awesome last night..
After the wine n swings..i felt damn emotional..
On the way back...
I totally lost my direction already...

See,I was damn blur but not drunk.
I drank a bit...
I felt some pain at the back..
I think is my liver or whatever sickness is it..
I felt pain...Im finding someone to tell...
and i chosen someone that doesnt really give a damn on my stuff...

In the group "breakfast time" at Umarani...
I feel really alone..
I dont talk anymore..
I dont smile...
I feel so tired....

Random

2009-10-31T00:13:00.002+08:00

When th sky out there getting darker...the breath i took getting anxious...

Gasping for warm oxygen...
And a Warm hug from a special one...
Its hard to let go but its time...
I really shouldn't think too much...
Since i already fed up..

"Not dont love, is cant take it anymore."
This line kept ringing in my head non-stop.

Yeah,im fed up..sad and down now..
Finding my direction now...

I'm curious..why we will feel heart break when a relationship ends?
Why ha?

U see,
We love with heart,time,effort.
It can be end in just a blink of eye..or even only a text message.

Well,ridiculous right?
I need to find someone...
Who will hug me whenever i cry.
^^

Sometimes love comes around,
And it knock u down just get back up
When it knock u down knock u down~

Get back up u bitch!!!!

Needing

2009-10-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

I need some sweet pumps~

Tend

2009-10-30T16:31:00.000+08:00

I tend to keep my feelings now...
I wonder why.

这些的经历让我了解到，
要找一个能够真正表露自己所有情绪的人来相处，
是天方夜谭。（琪，二零零九十月三十号）

什么时候……

2009-10-29T22:25:00.002+08:00

什么时候开始，我们逐渐没有了话题？
其实并不是没有话题……
而是我们都没有意思要跟对方说话了。

什么时候开始，我们不再牵手…不再并肩地走……
并不是我们有隔膜，而是心已经有了距离。

什么时候开始，车厢的空气变得僵硬？
是因为我不再说一些无谓的笑话，逗你开心。

什么时候开始，我们不再信息？
是因为我不再找你。

其实你没有发觉，过去两个星期我都是以你对我的方式对你。
没想到，我认了两年，你竟然连两个星期也受不了。

我脾气坏，还不都是因为说了，撒娇了，劝了，骂了你都不听才，开始的吗？
一直怪我发脾气，却从来没尝试了解。
就算我说出口，你也无动于衷。

一切从我心淡时开始……我不再热情对你。
以你平常对我的冷漠方式尝试和你沟通。
吵架时，不出声，不理会。
其实我连架也懒得吵了……
你也懒得了解我。

没关系，
这次真的让我深深体会到……
所谓的性格不合，这个荒唐的分手理由的真正意思。

也许舍不得这两年的时光，但至少我不会再像以前那样。
冲动的奋不顾身去挽留，因为真的……
心淡了……

“不是不爱你，
只是受不了。”

都是你和我都想想对方说的话。
你受不了我的脾气，我受不了你的冷漠。
你的信息很明显的让我感觉到你一丝丝的自私。
我把一切，都看成……
你不会再挽留……
我们也不会在一起。

好了~一切努力加油~~

明天会更好！
上帝祝福。

Break Up

2009-10-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

Perhaps...this is the final break up....
No more another chance...i guess....

Being

2009-10-26T23:04:00.003+08:00

As im not an attention seeker,and im also not a very easily spotted person.
Oh ya,and also to declare something.
I dont have branded cloths to wear,
My cloths usually from "ON SALE" warehouse, night market, or even "heritage" from my cousins.
Once i bought a branded cloths,were from SEED.The RED SINGLET.
The ONE AND ONLY piece of mine.
I usually dress up like....erhamm..to college. Im even lazy to make up, and hapily wearing my spec to college.
My point of view is, Im facing my true self. There's no need to afraid of what other people look at you,cuz they are NOTHING.

I never whated people to say that i got money.
This month.i just have only RM190 to spend. and left RM10 to make it until my next salary comes.
Even i seems wealthy occasionally, its because i make the money. The money doesnt comes to me just like that.

Im easily ignored,because i dont talk things to hurt ,or make fun of people except the new lecturer la~ XD
I listen because i think people nowadays are busy talking and forgot about being silent and listen carefully.
I give comment, opinion only when the person really wants to listen.
If i didnt comment anything that you asked me. Maybe i really dont have the qualify to judge your mind set.

Yea...the conclusion,i dont talk when everyone wants to talk. ^^

When

2009-10-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

When you have met friends who just only shares about each other's feeling in a good way.
It would be the best moment you guys had spent together.

When friends are not only talk about material, but inner sense of secure..
It would be worth to have a friend like this.

Friends are not only for happy times, but also when you are drown into the blues,
you wont feel hesitate to tell them.

A lot of peeps already forgot about it.

But now, i had finally find a group that i really feel worth to hang out with and not being ignored anymore.
^^
Good for me~

Writing

2009-10-23T19:33:00.002+08:00

What im writing here is not about the trends.
Not about the movies or any latest up dates.
But it is truly about ME.

Some people, some place,some thing..
Makes me feels awkward.

Saying about anti station1 but im still going~ XD

Should stop Before its too late

2009-10-13T20:34:00.002+08:00

That is what I always say to other. Should Stop before its too late. I'm Telling myself this time...
Its hard to reach.. Its hard to believe.. When it happens constantly.. You will get used to it...

!!! ANTI ANTI !!!

Owh! SHUT UP~

End of the world?

2009-10-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

Some people they say Tsunami and the earthquake that happened in Indonesia is God's Punishment for them because of the tragedy they cause.(its sensitive issue im not going to mention as duwan kena from ISA)
But in my point, it was really a Sign that the world is going to die,soon. Very SOON.

The end of the world....
Its getting nearer now..
If you have something that you havent do..

Just Do It Before Its Too Late.

And get close with your religion.
Maybe your God will save you.??

I should start to be closer to God already...

However

2009-10-02T23:38:00.002+08:00

I need to find a bunch of friends..or some friends that can drive me to lepak.
Whenever Im in deep shit..
Any Volunteers?

Something funny that Yang's mom just told me yesterday during lunch time.

Y.Mom: I think girls like your age, must find a lot of boyfriend.You can choose,and disqualify any who are not suitable.This not good,disqualify.That one is bad, cut him from list.SO you wont regret when got married.

Yang:.......(a bit pissed off)

Me:heh...heh...(sweating a lot at the back.|||")

True also...
SO that I wont regret marrying his son..

Gahahahahaa~~

Just

2009-10-02T23:34:00.001+08:00

Sometimes..I dunno why it will be so hard...
U know?
Im so in deep shit emo now...

Happy belated bday to me~

2009-09-27T01:07:00.002+08:00

September 26th is my bday~
I do receive a lot of wishes from lots of people frm facebook~
and thru this bday,i reli know who i should appreciate and who i shouldnt.

Thx to those who wished me and Damn those who didnt wish me.
Ahahaha..joking je la...
LOL..
I got an Baskin Robin's Ice cream cake..photo will be upload later..
then..blew the candle at Yang's house wif my dear...
simple..and silence celebration...

HehHeh...
thats what i expected..

After few days of trip that make me pokkai.
Seriously exhausted...

haha..drank few cocktail get rashes.

Now on,i wont control myself to take alcohol..

Try to get rid of the rashes and allergic.
Maybe it will cure if i drink more?Ahahaha~

I got some rashes on my body..
its not as itchy as the first time i got it..
but still ada rasa la~

However, Happie Birthday for me.

Cheers~!!

Wuala~!

2009-09-21T16:57:00.002+08:00

Saying her fugly is not lying to myself and everyone.
Even a person wants to be pretty and dye her hair...
do like trendy..
Act CUTE...
Anyway....The Ugly is still so Fugly...

~Heh~

Find me for more info~

Hehe~

2009-09-21T16:53:00.003+08:00

I get back my Liu hai d lo~~~
Dont Laugh a~!!!

Jiang~~ JIANG~~~~

Btw....my hair drop day by days...
im gonna be BOLD!!!!!
*shivering*

SImply How i feel.(no offence)

2009-09-11T20:06:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps.

Want to ask u guys something.

DO you guys care about your looks?

You see, it is so interesting that there was a girl. Counted as a friend of mine. She is really being so ironic with me.

Well, I would like to say about me 1st.

I’m born with fair scar less skin tone,slightly anti-pimple skin, small size. Weighting around 40-42kg. And 158cm tall.

I’m born to be tiny, small sizes.

I had used to make up to college.

I mean...everyone does.

They didn’t put on liner at least few brushes of mascara. Or some blushes. Just for some healthy glow on the face.

See, I’m not daring to say that I’m really good in makeup...but at least I had experience to be invited for some wedding dinner to help people make up, I worked for Kose and Kanebo brand counters. I don’t have the certificate, but I do plan to own one because it can make me money. Done with my make up experience.

Let’s talk about my face structure.

I have a very fair and pale face, with less lashes and brows.

If I don’t make up, I will look like a Vamp. Or maybe a junkie.XD

So, i did lazy to make up in the morning sometimes. And I went to school.

Before I get into my point.

I want to ask:

Do we have any girls that don’t care what people criticise about her?

NO. Every girls cares about what others look in them right?

We are girls and we are sensitive, admit it. Yes, even guys are.

Well...read this.

There were this very sensitive girl that will get EXTREMELY MAD if someone says her fat. Everyone knew it. So we never criticise her on her face. NO ONE. Because we respect. (And afraid)

But here now:(this 2 stories need some imagination)

(1st Time)

I din make up and in the class. Sitting with my bf...

And she suddenly stares at me like I’m a rare kind of people, or like I grew an apple tree on my head. (Those surprise face) and her eyes were rolling big, smile and showing her teeth. I reply her smile as manners. And she starts to say..:"Why your face so chan? Vry Chan oh...very Chan oh....."Keep repeating butt the voice is slightly softer and softer n softer while shaking her head...den I replied:"lazy to make up and tired laaa.." felt a frown and I ignore it...

(2nd Time)

Today, I didn’t make up to take exam, because I think there is no need to make up as I’m lazy to remove it also.

Before I went into the exam hall, accidentally bumped into this girl, AGAIN. Her eyes widen, staring at my face with a big mouth opened this time. Meanwhile some sort of moans like "WAaaaaaaaaaaaaa....." ((OoO)her face did look like this.)from her mouth when I pass by her. I ask her "why?" On my curiosity sake even I lazy to.

Then again she shakes her head and say: "your face so Chan ohh...really very Chan....." I was like..."Not again? Aren't you tired of keep teasing about my face?"Ok, mayb she wasn’t teasing or insulting. Maybe she just cares? 0.o I replied:" This not chan, is called fresh face." Duhh...lazy to think about other words to reply as im going to exam.

But what for she being so surprise?

It’s not the 1st time she see my pure makeup-less face. By the way, so many people saw my face, why they don’t actually do like what she did? Like EMPHASIZING others flaws.

Because people respects and they understand or even not to bother my life.

Isn’t she being toooooo OVER RESPONSE on people's flaws?

The reason I’m writing out. It’s that I don’t understand why people don’t want to get picked out their flaw but they picked on others?

Did she have any intention or motives?

To make me fall on my own knees because of my fresh skin?

Nah...Nothing about the skin...My skin is in above average condition.

Not to be proud but I do have great skin...no pimple scars, no wrinkles, no pimple, fair tone,just slightly de-hydrated and dark circles around my eyes.. (It is because I don’t put cream or moisturizer often.)

Then...Is she jealous of my make up skills?

So she wants me to make up more...like she always does before going to college?

Or, is she have nothing to pick on me except "very Chan oh" when comparing to her? (Physically)

OR, she really adores me so much, until she wants to know what happen to me that make me look so exhausted.

With or without intention, I don’t like you say it in that(both) way. Try to switch our shoes, if i say u r fat in those ways. How will you feel?

I try not to be mean even i want to. Because i still hope we can be friend in future and also u r my friend's GF. We have more chances to meet each other.

I don’t expect your apologize.Honestly. Please I really don’t need it. not that I don’t accept. I don’t want people to misunderstand that u are the victim and I’m the bad girl. Because there are no victim in this case. Just an article to make u think deeper after u read. Honestly, u are not any better than me if you dont put on your make ups.

No body is perfect, so try not to pick on others as u are not perfect also. Especially between girls. Not that im being kecik hati but, everyone have their own sensitive zone right?

If u read this, u will know I’m talking about u. Read with heart, not heat.

Cool, Im done.

Gotta blast~

Days

2009-08-30T15:34:00.002+08:00

These few days, i went to a BBQ farewell..
2 rubbish movies..i mean im watching the movies that i never expect i will be watching it.
Ghost of the girl friends past? and A KungFu Cyborg.
Both comedies and interesting...
But i stil cant get to watch my Orphan!!!!!
im getting crazy now...sigh...
Exam is near...and im stil havent study for a thing.NOT EVEN ONE WORD.
kay..stay cool..stay calm...
u r not going to pass the subjects if you still wanna mess around..
=_=

Testing Testing~~

2009-08-24T21:17:00.002+08:00

I know i missed alot when i didnt attend to college.
Well, i didnt do it purposely...

Since now im free and..nothing to do....
while i jz noticed that muja had tag ma..
Tags..hmm..i dont get tags usually maybe they know i dont reply tags...
But nvrmind..
So free...

1. 我的大名 : 罗佩琪
2. 我的生日 : 26-09-1989 *i noe i noe, but i jus luk way too younger than my age XD*
3. 誰傳給你的 : 穆在希
4. 說出7 個好朋友 : 嗯……很难叻！我比较会默想。
5. 生日想要得到什麼禮物 : 随便，体贴又实际的就好。
6. 近期開心的是 : 一切都阿尼阿尼啦~
7. 近期壓力大的是 : 考试，考试考试考试~~~！！
8. 未來想做什麼啊 : 起码要赚个亿吧~
9. 有沒有喜歡的人 : 我的宝贝，众所皆知的孙宇洋！
10. 同學會要回去找老師嗎 : 没有人会做那么吊的事情得啦！
11. 跟誰出去最幸福 : 废话！当然是钱啦！没有钱，除去哪里会幸福？！什么都买不了！！
12. 如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : 八一下，讲一下……那么难搞就不吊咯！
13. 跟情人出去最想去哪 : 出国旅行吧？
14. 聖誕節要做啥 : 去教堂！
15. 最想跟誰過聖誕節 : 当然是宝贝！
16. 有沒有起床气 : 什么来的哦？！
17. 有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 三，我最大。
18. 最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : 卓文宣-一个人的勇敢
19. 最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) : 五月天-天使
20. 喜歡什麼顏色 : 白、红、黑、粉蓝、粉红、美就喜欢咯！
21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 废话！当然洗！
22. 愛不愛我 : 可以不要那么三八吗？
23. 喜歡男生還是女生 : 都喜欢!
24. 最想大聲說什麼 : 可以现在就放假吗？
25. 半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : 敢啦！怕鬼没有怕到那种程度！
26. 上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : 不脱才怪！我是女生叻！不脱怎么上？！
27. 誰很欠打 : 那些很欠打的咯~ =_=" （木夹夹！答得好！）
28. 現在很迷什麼 : 我一直都保持得很实际的生活，不会说特别迷什么。
29. 睡相很差 : 这个……要问跟我睡过觉的人。
30. 現在的時間 : 9.35pm
31. 是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人 : 还好啦~~
32. 今天天氣 : 晴中有雨
33. 你懷孕了嗎 : 万字都没有那么准拉！哈哈哈！
34. 你若中樂透最想做什么 : 哇，看中多少！中多就不读书做生意！少的话就收咯！博什么？
35. 大學生一定要玩的活動 : 跳楼机，到真正闹鬼的地方探险拍摄！
36. 什么事曾让你哭得很厉害: 笨蛋坏蛋的时候！
37. 什么事是你最快乐的 ：看心情咯~~

【點名人物】随便填啦！

1. 洋
2. 慧雯
3.佩雯
4. 君添
5.德威
6. 德洋
7. vincent
8. Knet
9. Vanessa
10. Albert *my dad.XD

01-【４號認識６號嗎】：不认识！
02-【１０號是男還是】：男人！
03-【８號的興趣是】：不清楚！
04-【１號有沒有兄弟姐妹】：有！
05-【７號姓氏】：不懂！
06-【１０號人緣好嗎】：非常好！
07-【４號有人追嗎】：有吧？
08-【承上２號呢】：不可能！！
09-【６號喜歡的顏色是】：谁知道！
10-【３號和１０號是朋友嗎】：不是！不可能！！
11-【８號的生日是】：过了吧？
12-【５號讀哪呢】：INTI
13-【你怎麼認識１０號的】: 出生的时候。他帮我改名字的。你说叻？
14-【你跟１號的生日差幾個月】：17天！！
15-【你和８號有出去玩過嗎】：没有！
16-【你喜歡和２號聊天嗎】：他是我的好朋友！当然咯！我们无所不谈！
17-【你喜歡和8號在一起嗎】：一样咯~
18-【你覺得７號人怎樣】：还可以拉~
19- 【你覺得９號人怎麼樣】：很热心，待人诚恳。
20-【你愛1號嗎】：当然咯~~宝贝我爱你！！

＊睡覺前第一件事 : 上网
＊起床前第一件事 : 发梦拉！
＊你的偶像是 : 父母！
＊你喜歡的季節 : 冬天吧？下雪……
＊你打工過嗎 : 有
＊打工次數 : 没算！
＊你想去的國家 : 说不完啦！有钱就环游世界！那有人讨厌旅行的？！
×你觉得朋友重要吗？：当然啦！

What?!

2009-08-24T15:49:00.001+08:00

I dont like other girls touching my boy.
No matter in which way or what intention they have.
by the way who likes it?
DUHH~

Sick

2009-08-24T15:21:00.002+08:00

Whatever shit it is..i've been sick for erm...4days?
particularly im still kinda blur here...
crave for blogging since im sick which also equals to im 'trap' at home.to rest.
no work, no studies, no outing.
Geezz...
So damn bored.
for these few days that i cant online..
Oh ya...i must talk about the medicine im taking rite?
Aye..totally 4 pills 4times a day..*and actually im skipping it.* XD
because the medicine make me feel even worse...
i will be blur like dunno what, and typing weird symbols to my kayu...
however....
im still blur...and that's it.

Club,CapeSquare,Craziness

2009-08-13T22:26:00.005+08:00

Last night went CapeSquare.(If im not mistaken)
haha..
Lu called me up around 8pm and ask me whether wana go club or not.
Because they have some sort of ladies nite promotion.
5gilrs 1 table n free 1 liquor.And also COCKTAIL FREE FLOW yo~!
*Sounds not bad even i cant drink any alcohol*
Then i decided to go, even i was hesitating that i have to drive there but they said it was really near only.*so true*
Aiya..it has been a while i didnt go club already...*im a good girl*Herrkk!*
the problem is i have to go out before 9pm..
So i faster ask Kambing Kayu to dried his hair faster, n wash the dishes and stuff.
then i chao to Lu n Kim's apartment at MU.
Then i met duno whats her name that always have a lame excuse..
Mr Cindian Tiru. Kevin, n Tenji>kenji?Ohh..what ever...
Then Lu ask them to join oso,and after a very long consideration n discussion.
Finally they decided to go~~
luckily la...we girls finally have guys to cover us..so no need to worry if someone wants to be salty.XD
the 1st thing we reach we straight go to the bar and Kim ordered 4total of Vodka Lime...
1st cup taste so so but due to over amount of vodka..i dun like it.
But the 2nd cup was different.heh heh...
Taste sweet....
I drank half glass...*scare rashes ma*
and we dance like we are crazy on the dance floor..guahaha...
Get out from the club around 2.40am sumthing.
Then we went to Steven Corner for supper?breakfast??
Call it as u like la.
all of us main slumber je la....
then they accompany me home.

P/s: although i dont really und what u said to me..but i really appreciates it because u cherish our friendship.

Ok..maybe not that secret anymore.

2009-08-12T18:49:00.002+08:00

This blog..that i claimed to be only read by my closest friends..are now opened.
Even im not willing to.
Dont ask me why.
im not gonna tell.
Yea...this place suppose to be the place that i scribbles about my true feelings.
But now i might not doing it anymore.(maybe i will)
So, its kinda depressing actually...

Its been a while i didnt blog.
I went PD..Learnt lot of things.
Oh yea...
Im now joining Muja's member.
The New Gossip Girl... =_= lame....
He gossip about the celeb...
I'm going to get the juiciest hot HOT H0T gossip cookies among us.
Not bad huh?

ANother Day

2009-07-30T21:50:00.003+08:00

Had fought...
Yes...
I dont want talk more about today..
Not good at all...!!!!!

The day

2009-07-30T01:02:00.001+08:00

A day without doing anything...
Nope...
i did something...
i ate Kinder Bueno as my breakfast..
2packs of Vono soup...
and some spaghetti..

Aahh....
Just randomly....

Songs

2009-07-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

Whenever i listen to Mary Jane and The Reason Why from The Click5...
I will feel some kind of moody?
Not really.
But it really made me daze for a while...
because the song is so true...
and this songs inspired me whenever i draw or designing..
Surprising huh?
Or maybe i think too much??

When i listen to Flightless Bird,American Mouth..
I will feel that it is sweet inside...
U know?

For now im really lost in relationship...
That we intend to end it but...
Dilemmas..
I dont know..
I just hope that people around me will take like nothing happened...
No matter what decision we had made....
sigh....

Feel Like

2009-07-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

Feel like breaking up..how??

Its...

2009-07-22T22:10:00.001+08:00

Its Been awhile that i didnt blog in this blog.
Ceh..
nothing to say la..but so many things to do...
Apala...
my msn kena hack,
i worked for stadium astro..
erm..what more?
i skipped redbull accidently..
wat the fuck la..
i still hate my sis.
fuck her...!!!

Fuck it then!

2009-07-05T00:18:00.001+08:00

Nah..u all know that my lovely necklace spoilt during my fight with the ci bai sister..

Damn her!!

So damn sad...
I will still cry when i luk at the necklace..
She duwan to pay me back..how?
What should i do??

Even she paid me to buy a new 1..
Cant buy back the meaning.
Sigh...
It meant SO MUCH for me....

My 2nd anniversary gift

2009-06-28T17:28:00.002+08:00

Oh My God....
My dear...
Honestly, when i receive the gift..
I wasn't so impress, because it doesn't looks very shiny, it doesn't dazzle my eyes..
Its just looks plain..and i thought i might get cheaper price than the price u bought it.
And it is also because you and I didn't know the meaning of Moonstone and why is it so expensive..
U so stupid la..
so touching and meaningful u also didnt go search!!

Now I know...because I Google it!!Guahaha~

Moonstone Gemstone meaning:
passionate love that will fly you to the moon!!!

Ahahaha~
ok..the details..

It is said if you give your lover a moonstone necklace when the moon is full you will always have passion with each other. Moonstone is a highly valued gemstone for these reasons:

Brings good fortune
Assists in foretelling the future
Enhances intuition
Promotes inspiration
Brings success in love as well as business matters
Offers protection on land and at sea

The moonstone is associated with the moon and was the stone of the goddess Diana. The most powerful time to use the moonstone is in a full moon.

It has been worn as an amulet to bring good emotions to the wearer, while protecting those of a sensitive nature. It can reunite lovers who have quarreled. Moonstone is also considered a good luck stone.

Moonstone is a very personal stone. It is a reflection of the person who owns it. It does not add or detract, only shows how it is. This is why the moonstone is said to perceive that which "is". Moonstone is an excellent stone to use in meditation to understand oneself. Placing it in the moonlight of a moon reaching its fullness, not a full or waning moon, can revitalize it. This is a particularly good gemstone for women. It is a good stone for young women or teenagers.

Healing properties of Moonstone

Moonstone stimulates the functioning of the pineal gland and balances internal hormone cycles with nature's rhythms. Moonstone is a stone of inner growth and strength. Though often considered to be a woman's stone, it can be beneficial to men in opening the emotional self.

Okay..for chinese..

古时候，世界上很多国家的人们就认为佩戴月亮石能给人带来好运，并能唤醒心上人的温柔感情，给人以力量，憧憬美好的未来。

在现代，许多国家把月亮石与珍珠一起定为“六月诞生石”，象征健康、富贵和长寿。而喜欢月亮的人把月亮石称为“恋人之石”，幽幽月亮，浪漫迷人，极具吸引力。

把月亮石送给你的心怡之人，月亮可以代表你的心。月亮石能让你艳光四射，是理想的爱情水晶，一切散发着你独特的个人魅力，同时又不会断绝身边同性好友的情谊。

DEAR!!! LOVE U MUCH MUCH!!!!!!!

THANK YOU!!!!

Friends?

2009-06-25T16:47:00.001+08:00

I really want to tell my whole gang of sistaz..beware of 小人。He is just around us.

Phobia 2

2009-06-23T18:57:00.002+08:00

Friends around me will know what am i talking about...

2nd years anniversary...
So scary for me...i wish i cud skip that day...
Or maybe i should ask him to forget about it?
And we both just act like nothing special on that day??

Owhh....
Please la..tell me what to do...!!!

I kept telling myself "don't think too much!!don't think too much!!!"
but i still will think what will happen next...

Or i should tell him...
"lets wait until our 5th year anniversary??? Then we will celebrate..???"
Maybe you think he will disagree, but..i don't think so...

1st of all we dont have money to celebrate...
2nd...i really went crazy because of his previous mistakes...
Gosh....

Pak tor is really making me sick.....

So Ironic

2009-06-22T00:02:00.002+08:00

What so ironic??
Duh..
I have a boy friend, my friends have their boyfriends...
Their boyfriend knows the way to pamper them and show them love..
My boyfriend got no idea of how to pamper me..
Whenever i saw some of my friend got some surprise present from their boyfriend, i just feel like Its unfair....
Not unfair...its just like so ironic that we all have a boyfriend and i have a this like boyfriend and yours were that like boyfriend...

I know that every couple have their own problems behind...
but at least your boyfriend will start to do something when any fight occurs...
but mine just so.....fuck..!!
Shudnt be so emo suddenly....
sigh..
what to do...
can i own a better one??

*feels like crying*

Think too much....

2009-06-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

Just now on the way back after had a dinner with my family....
I saw something that really stunned me for a while..
I saw a black plastic bag with some strained cans inside...on the divider of the road..
Wow...
suddenly i got some... DeJaVu sense..
LOLX..

Then in a sudden i saw some flashes about a trash collector accident and the bag were left there...
The flashes is soo fast until i cant identify is a he or she....

Err...am i thinking too much???

0_0???

Phobia

2009-06-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

Get what i mean?
Phobia.... okok...maybe FOBIA will sounds or looks more familiar??
No? It Dont?? 0_0
okay..
According to my electric dictionary...

PHOBIA:
A strong unreasonable fear or hatred of something.

Exp: He has a phobia about flying.

Words related : PHOBIC : means a person who has PHOBIA..

LOLX!

Should i use I has or I have phobia towards bitches??

Stupid question ya?

RM9.90大过天！！

2009-06-16T22:51:00.004+08:00

Haha~ when you look at my title sure dont know what i mean.
Sure u thought i bought something with RM9.90 and that's why im so happy~
But..u are wrong girl~
XD
Today is my favorite BBQ plaza's Member Day.
All member will pay RM9.90 for ALL YOU CAN EAT!!!!!
Something like buffet....
but what so bad is..
Im not a member. F*ck!!
okay then..my sis's bf have the card..then we go eat lo~
but when im gonna reach around 4pm++, she say she is going for movie at 6pm..
WTF??!!!!means after her movie is around 8.30pm..
WHYYYY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!
Some more Yang is working..so he cant go with me...Sit Dai sai la ~~
actually while at home im asking Luann to accompany me geh~~(Cause she have the card, if didnt ask her go...like vry guilty...some more we can share share the card marh~~***)
But she dont want to go..said very inconvenience for her to go from college to Times Square.
but at last when she know im alone and she come to accompany me..T_T
GAM DONG NAHH~~~ *teary eyes blinking* q(Q _ Q*)q
I LOVE U~~~~

HAHA~~
We straight go to BBQ plaza..
We ordered Supreme Family Set and Deluxe Family Set...am i right??
Both are RM30 above. Add on side item 1 Bacon, 1 scallops.
The waiter that took our order..like..very surprise we ordered so much..and told us if cant finish the meat slices, we have to pay RM10 per 100g of the meats.
then..we started to eat...and eat and eat eat and eat.....
we chat chat chat, eat eat eat...
within 1 hour...we finished 3plates to meats...and the scallops and the bacons......>x<" she started to feel very full, but then i still okay okay...so i ordered 1 lamb but too bad my lovely scallops were sold out!!!then we replace the dunno jelly wat thing... wow..reli damn full... can imagine a??we 2 gals can finish so many food... wait har... i upload the pictures...

BEFOREAFTER

GOD...thank you for letting BBQ plaza open in times square....Q_Q
Guess how much we paid for them all??
RM25.30..
MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~~!!!!! *EVIL LAUGH*

I read muja's blog..
since when his blog entries soooo RUDE liao de??
MUJA?U GOT PROB A??
ANYTHING JUST TELL US..DUN HIDE IT...
XD

But one thing i like about his latest post is about a girl...
He say:
bitch is actually not suit her.. she is more like a NERD with her stupid glasses that acting like a bitch.. eh i prefer bitch more then u lah.. bitch is too BIG for u..

Muja...u are SO MEAN!!!!
Can i use it on the bitch??erm..i mean NERD???
hahahahahaha~~
NITES~!!

2009-06-16T15:04:00.004+08:00

有人的地方就有是非！就是因为有太多像你那样的八婆，在那边乱说加盐加醋，白的都被你们说到黑的啦！有证据证明就拿来！现在我怕你啊！谁说的就叫他来跟我讲!你有病就去看医生不要出来乱乱吠！不想要有眼睛就挖掉啦，反正你的眼睛也是没用的！看不到真相的存在！

一个人说，或许是误会。两个人说，可能我听错…四五个人告诉我，我的错？原来男的都可以叫八婆哦？XD形容得真好~~你买镜子了没？哇~现在的你不只是贱呐~！而且还是泼妇哦！第二个真相！心理医生，全身镜是你最需要的哦~记得买来照照自己！贱泼妇~原来你会吠~XD

我觉得是你无风不起浪咯！抄别人的话来反击，好蠢！男生就不能做八婆吗？那个就叫着鸡婆！像你咯，物以类聚嘛！贱？哪够你贱…你比较厉害！我惹到你了吗？你有必要这样吗？我走我的路，你过你的独木桥！河水不犯井水！你现在是想怎样？你根本不知道什么是真相！

抄？！你在那里看过一模一样的？口凭无据！对阿~我是无风不起浪的人。你的事情也是！你的人缘那么好~猜是谁咯~想怎样也不会想跟你打架！你都知道你啦~之前小小事就说要打架！XD成年人，说话像样点！我说过，当面出来对质就知道什么是真相咯~反正你说你不怕我嘛~

现在当然没证据啦！你都删除了！敢抄却不敢认，真想你会做的事哦！难道你就不能过你自己的生活吗？我从没干扰你！我有说过要打架吗？这个是你自己联想的吧…跟你打架？不了，像你那么野蛮的人，打起架来一定用野蛮的手法的，难有可能打赢你！

你也不承认自己说过的话啊~人缘那么好~哇!你那么快就想要怎么打了啊？那么现在是出来还是不出来谈？啊~那么胆小，block我了啊？我没有删，我们的对话我都有记下来~怎么可能没有证据呢？你英文差，华语都不行！真丢脸！还学人吵架！无风不起浪~哈！我是！过奖了~！

打？我从来没说过要跟你打！你会看华语吗？你的理解能力真差！我的英文华语差？是哦？可惜我读书都拿到很高分，全都是用英文写的！不懂装懂！我又不承认吗？那个是你咯！block你？有必要吗？你以为你是谁啊！我人缘好？你又知道？我从不觉得我人缘好咯！

说的好像别人的考试不是用英文那样噢？悟性真低！我从来就没有说过要跟你打架！哈哈！还好你有自知之明啊~看来你买了镜子吧？就算贱，也贱不过一脚踏两船！一直逃避我的问题，就是你心虚。真没趣~跟你那么没有文化的人沟通真辛苦呀~果真是我秀才遇见兵，有理说不清~

你没说过？哈哈。。你真的是无理到极点！我没转过话题，所有的话题都是你开始的！所以你爱怎样说就怎样说，我需要逃避些什么？我没文化？最没文化的人是你！什么都要拖人下水！跟你说多几句，真累，真痛苦啊！理解能力那么差，还要学别人批评别人！没脑袋！

我从没说过你转话题。你从新看看我写过什么再回答！可以不要模仿我说话吗？做人有点矜持会死哦？你跟我说的话，当你照镜子的时候才说！出来当面对质，不然你就收声！低级又没思想的贱泼妇！完全不明白我说的东西！还在那边唱独角戏…每个人都看见你愚蠢的话在笑！XD

你够了！从开始到现在，你就一直不爽我！请问我得罪你了吗？我们一点都不熟！你一开始说的时候，我是给脸人家才不跟你争论，可是你变本加厉！跟你说明白，你就一直反击，根本不理人家说些什么就定人家的罪了！人家会看笑话还不是你造成的！还有请你嘴巴放干净点！

你姓赖的哦？谁叫你一开始都那么喜欢说谎？啊~我几时说过我们很熟？你给脸谁？夸张！你说的话都反过来讲的！你说什么明白？每句大家看到的也是反驳得不合逻辑的话~反正人家看到的笑话是你又不是我，我不介意啊~哈哈！你可以说你说的话是真相，那我的也是事实啊！大家彼此~

Me and the Bitch~tada~~~ PART 2~

2009-06-06T22:48:00.008+08:00

Previously.......

Miie>>你以为我就受得了你吗？我也忍了你很久咯！一开始就猛模仿我…这很令我困扰耶……

Bitch>>你可以不要拿金自贴自己的脸吗？谁想学你哦。。拜托！你又不是明星偶像！呕就有你份！你才不要脸，一开始就是你在搞事！是我受不了你！你是太得空没事做，是吗？你真无聊！

Miie>>-如果你心里没鬼，怎会觉得我在说你？你硬要到处跟别人说我说的人是你，我就陪你玩咯~没办法，你都那么有势了…只有你才会那么老土用金贴脸吧？真丢脸~你一直呕，是不是有了？OMG!! XD-

Bitch>>根本就没人想跟你玩！你得空没事做不代表别人也想你那么得空！那你又怎么会觉得我再跟你说呢？！不就不打自招了吗？我没到处说你，是其他人在说你！关我什么事？我本来就没在说你！从来就没人要跟你挣，你那么喜欢赢那就让你咯！请不要拖我下水！我不想跟你玩！

Miie>>明明就是心里有鬼~赢什么？输什么？抢什么？原来你就是在想着那么幼稚的东西啊？你也有跟某人说我，以为我不懂？装什么无辜？！有胆做，没胆认！好啊~既然你都不是在说我，那你也没有必要回答我啊！FAKER~下水？你湿了吗？去！

Bitch>>我在说什么，你又在说什么？好啊，敢做敢当，那你就自己承认啊！敢做没胆认的人是你！别人没做过你为什么硬逼人家承认？你装什么清纯！人家说什么你就相信什么！叫那个某人好好管教你啦！我是幼稚啊！可是都好过你！好人你做完咯！坏人又让我做咯！粗言粗语！

Miie>>在这里说那么多废话也没用。大家算是成年人，要不就约出来谈，要不就收声。反正每个人有的是眼睛。管教还不轮到你说。他们让你，并不代表我也需要像他们那样！有头脑的人也知道我跟清纯扯不上关系。白痴！

Bitch>>是啊，每个人都有眼睛就只有你没有！真可怜！我说过不了解不知道实情，就不要乱说话！要说别人之前先想别人的感受！我根本不需要你的认同！你宁愿多个敌人也不要多一个朋友，那是你的问题！有那么多时间在人家背后批评人家，不如花点时间检讨自己！废人…

Miie>>如果我眼睛看到你，我还真的宁愿没有眼睛呢！哈哈！我可没有在乱说噢~我有的是证明。废话多多，出来对质是谁不对啦~你说你自己哦？废人？嗯~用贱人比较适合你咯~但是要是没有那种事情发生，怎么会传到我的耳朵阿？而且还那么多人跟我说！XD我不需要假惺惺的人当我朋友！
我眼睛看到你，我还真的宁愿没有眼睛呢！哈哈！废话多多，来对质是谁不对啦~你说你自己哦？废？嗯~用贱比较适合你~要是没有那种事情发生，怎么会传到我的耳朵阿？而且还那么多人跟我说！XD说到检讨，你需要由头到尾，从内至外彻彻底底检讨咯~你最需要的…是面镜子！XD

Sigh.

2009-06-02T13:54:00.002+08:00

knowing i shouldnt post such emo post..but i really need to...
Wif him..i requested some time off...
like..he just dont care whether i am care about him or not..
what do u expect a person will understands u when u kept answering her "dunno."?
I really fed up this time..
Hopefully will find a better one..
i dont know he agree already or not..
but if he didnt contact me and act good to me..
means..we are really break up already...
yea..
kinda sad...
and feel hard to let go...
but..if this is the truth while he dont care about everything.....
why should i susah payah stay beside him and become his baby sitter??
Get my point??

Because of him...
i cant eat cant sleep...
but now i know there are more important things to do than just thinking of him...
i got my friends...studies and my family....
good for me to realize what i had give out is to get nothing as feedback..
as i love him...i wish he could have some respond....
not just only me to feed him until over whelmed...but he not going to feed me any...
having crisis here...
wish me luck...
im gonna learn to drink....
so that future i wont drunk because of a cup of beer...
Duhhh~~~
*rolling my eyes*

Cheers~!

ARGHHH~~~~

2009-06-02T00:57:00.001+08:00

Start sem d....
So lazy~~~~~~~

Me and the Bitch~tada~~~

2009-05-31T13:04:00.007+08:00

Whole story starts frm here......
know what...evrytime when i c dis gal on9...im surely action action d...
XD
Cuz..she is well known public transport during her high school time...
she even cheated on few guys..include my bf...
she likes to tell different stories to different people..
She became the 3rd party of people's marriage..
she slept with the guy..but still telling everyone shes still a VIRGIN..
and it was funny while everyone is no longer trusted her..
she still able to lie..as she believe she is SOOOO LOVABLE~
And everyone loves her~ *wink
here i am..to be a devil..
and pulls her from her "dream castle" to reality.
i will put every single of evidence that We wrote...
and...maybe her picture..
I was told by herself that how pretty...how many lecturer said that she is pretty...
she tolds me that her English is so good..but in fact..
i could barely understand her english even i don't get good grades...XD shh~
Okay...Whatever i said..she just tried her best to get over me..but never in a logic way...
Sort of funny and interesting and this makes me wants to chat with her..
Say that im a drama queen~ *rolling my eyes*
By the way who cares...
I just hate betrayers and hypocrite....^____^
Here..i would proudly attach her photo, and u judge her.

Is she pretty??(dis1 nt bad...XD)

She thinks she is prettier than me no matter inner or outlook...

Confidence is good..but over confidence..will be really ugly...^___^

I tried my best to find the nicest photos..sorry...cant help it...
Okay..mayb her Primary photo will do...

Okay...1 more thing im damn pissed off is dat she copy me...=_=..dar says im sensitive..but look...

U JUDGE!!
The necklace!!

The Personal message!!!

Co-incident izit??!!
Is she a stalker??!!!
There are few times about the personal message...
I've endure it since i found out...
So...who is the one who cari pasal??

Miie>>A slut's life are meant to be ruin by herself. no matter how u r going to imitate me...u r still a bitch.

Bitch>>plz look at urself b4 u comment other ppl...u nt tat pretty...even u r pretty at the look wif makeup but ur heart is ugly...

(XD Here comes she admit herself as a Bitch and a FAKER~)

Miie~>>>你自己以前做过什么事情最清楚啦~弄到自己好像很多人要酱…看到男的就扑…真滥交…整个学校的人都知道啦~~还装什么无辜~哈哈哈~自己还以为真的那么受欢迎哦？

Bitch~>>>@_@~**plz dun simply misustd other ppl..anythg u mz ask b4 u say..is nt fair if the thg is nt like tat n u simply tok about it.
Bitch>>~@_@~**dun simply say bout other ppl..u duno den dun say..is nt fair ok..u nt her..u dun ustd..u make me feel wan vomit..
(omg..is she pregnant?)

Me>>_Hell noes cuz evry1 tellin da same thg.bt its different story when comes 2u_hapi to u guys thr...>_<...its reli been awhile...
Miie>>My schedule= My life..& its well packed!!!Grr.. _honestly,i reli dun und why wud a gal can havin few guys in a row..so ganas._

Bitch>> ~@_@~**blif on wat u had seem but dun blif the truth..so foolish..很多东西不是你想怎样就怎样！请看清楚什么才是真相。。

(Can u blif her english???zzzz)
Bitch>> ~@_@~**blif on wat u had seem or wat ppl told u but dun blif the truth..is foolish..很多东西不是你想怎样就怎样！请看清楚什么才是事实，什么才是事情的真相。。

Miie>>My schedule= My life. -da truth is having few guys in a row doesnt means u r popular but a SLUT. ^___^ m i rite,gals?? haha-

Will be more updates very soon~~~

Money

2009-05-13T01:31:00.002+08:00

Without money, we cant do anything.
We cant spend.
Unable to balance our life.
Everything needs to pay.
Food, cloth, daily uses, PETROL. and so on...
Include dating out.
If currently u dont have a job and your parents loses their jobs because of the Eco tsunami.
Your family will probably in a mess now.
Just like my boyfriend.
His father dont have any income anymore,left his mother working as accountant in a company.
The petrol fees are over 1k every single months.
Electric fees + Water bills are about 600+...
Add on their pocket money..RM280 every month.
Daily uses around rm300 per month.
Food around Rm300-RM400...
Total Up...RM3080++

So...tell me how?
i asked him to get a job...
but he is like...
i cant do anything oso.

Work?

2009-05-13T00:11:00.006+08:00

Helloowww~~
So sorry...i promised u guys that i'll update my photos~ but..
Due to some peopla...XP
Some Friends..I need to wait them to send me those photos laa~~kekeke~
Heres some desserts..

Marcus..
A nice guy with funny laughing..hahaha~
He is the one who helped me and Jess get a lot of recycle bags!!
Nice one! and he is stil single...anygirls?? haha~

With My booth's BRADERS~
oh ya! Both standing side are Koreans!!

Mr Ee Said that if KFC saw this picture..they might ask me to staring in their Advertisement!
Gosh..i look so greedy.....haha~

Another sweet pie that brought me to tea break & open my coke can for me..SAM.
He said he bring magics to the booth n perfromed because of me..Although he did it on the last day even he mentioned on the 1st day.XD

This is my Booth~(What im Selling is just those Calipers And measuring tools)

Obviously leng zai malay that looks like JERRY frm F4~!!!
Aww~my sweet pie~
(I noticed that he's been looking at me secretly for 5days! XD)

Me & lovely Jessica~
(she is always pretty and photogenic!!)

We both are TAKEN~XD

Do u think thats all??
NO WAY!!
There are more..
Stay tuned and find out!!
Muackzzz!!!

Know

2009-05-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

Know what??
Now working really less msg with Him d.
I really got nothing to say la..
cuz' Im too excited about My PayS'!!!!
muahaha...
Redbull Pay is out..
After 3 days, My Exhibition Pay will out..in CASH~~~~
haha...really damn happie...
1stly Do SOME SAVINGS~
2nd, Get money to do foot massage..hahaha!
Standing for the whole day made my Foot so pain..its time to pamper both of them la~
^^
3rd, SHOP!!!!!! and complete my make up set~~~~Yey Yey~~~

Sunday i will be uploading photos of five of us~
^____^
Happie ~~

Fucking CB METALTECH STAFF!!

2009-05-08T19:44:00.003+08:00

Damn Hate them...
Cbly hamsap..
FUCK THEM 99 la!!
All old ppl 为老不尊！
kept talking blue jokes...
Like very funny...
Damn offensiv jokes...Ma de...Go die la...
No wonder all so yong sui la..kns...
If not bcuz of RM120 per day i oso duwan c u all faces liao...
Ma hai....
U tink the jokes u said very funny meh??
Your brain cant think of respecting women's right than just talking those fucking offensive jokes that u think is funny and we girls all like it very much because we smile?!!!??!!!
diao nia sing cao ci bai...
I RELI DAMN PISSED OF TODAY!!!!!!

MetalTech 2009

2009-05-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

I cant believe i get this job..have to thanks Jessica for recommending me into this job.
Really surprise because i receive sms from her just A DAY BEFORE the Exhibition...
haha...Lucky me~~
its from 6th to 10th of May 2009 at PWTC.
If you are free, do come and visit me~
Muahaha~~
So happiiee~
I will update the photos when i get them! I promise.
Yea...and the guys over there like never see girls nia...haha..
Its an advantage for being a girl..
So happie~
Lunch provided..Nice staffs... What U expect more??
Really thank God also..I prayed SO DAMN HARD for this job..xixixix~~
Thanks god..
And my friends..Want a boy friend??
Can ask me for further info~

Cheers~

Babies

2009-05-04T19:40:00.002+08:00

There are a lots of thing hapenning during these day...
I saw a lot of negative post...
Sad posts...
So down...and so emotional...
Im having a pretty hard time with my boyfriend too...
Just let see what will happens next..

LU:
baby, no matter will u read my blog or not..
I was just hoping u can stand straight and stay strong because forever you know i will by you side..
Just hit a a call or flood me with you tears okay??
ANYTIME..I MEANT IT.
So..dont weighing up all the problem yourself...
We are friends.
Love u..
Peggy.

Whats the point?

2009-05-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

Whats the point of being together????
I really lost in this question now..anyone tell me???

我想我遇见了天使…

2009-05-02T16:31:00.002+08:00

刚考完试回来就马上倒头睡了。

躺在床上，我全身绷紧……根本无法入眠……
在我最累，最沉淀的时候对我说了一句话。

“来，牵着我的手不要放开。我带你去一些地方玩…逃离现实的压力。”

他伸出手，我接着。
我心情沉重地牵着他，脚踏着云彩……全身轻飘飘的…真的很舒服…
真真的凉风吹过。
突然间手松了，他转过来看着我，

“不要放开。跟着我。”

这是他的眼神告诉我的。带有点不高兴。
因为是我内心的沉重促使我松开手。他知道的。
通常我又这种情况都是一些异物想把我的灵魂吞噬……
但他没有。
就这样飘……
我很快就入眠了……

他是我梦里的天使……飞。

My Time Capsule

2009-05-02T01:29:00.002+08:00

I just put a time capsule in my blog.

And between us.

02-05-2010

If he still remain so damn lazy and useless...
we will break up..
I mean i will DUMP him!!!!
If i still remember this thing....

Damn regret cuz being with him without knowing him more...
sigh...
i hate him....
i love him too....
but as soon as i met a better guy than him..
for sure i will say bye bye to him d~~

Nobody

2009-04-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

实际上没有人喜欢自己的生活那么复杂。
愈是复杂，我们就越头痛。
甚至会想要逃避。
逃避了会使问题加深。

我跟他，其实没有什么问题。
缺乏了沟通，什么问题都来了。
也许我的男朋友就是那么不懂情趣吧？
所以从来就没有什么浪漫的表现。
可是浪漫也可以很自然啊！
不一定要买花还是礼物。
就像每天早上一封温馨的简讯也是一种浪漫啊~~
怎么他都不会……
我现在是在谈恋爱叻~~~不是结婚了……
怎么我们都那么平淡啊？
不公平拉~！！！！！！！！！！

Burst...

2009-04-27T00:22:00.002+08:00

Today i really cant tahan d..
after i tahan all these few days in a row....try to control myself for not to being so emo..
and try to talk nicely to him...
At last i found out this is TORTURING ME~!!!!!!!!
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!
he went hiking....around...6.30am..should wake up around 5.30am...
but he never text me...NOT EVEN a good morning message!!
Okay...Maybe he is rushing to go out...
I text him about 9am+ he 11am oni reply me...
Never mind...hiking ma...maybe no line...maybe he off his phone...
We chat awhile...just a few message...
then he didnt reply...i was like...wtheck??
now u free u dont even want to reply me??
Then he suddenly replied say he slept in his friend's car during the way back home and he is going to reach home d...
FINE!!!
That time i went out already and i just fu yan 9 him la....
no mood to talk to him at all...
Then he say he too tired and take nap...i let him...(2-3pm)
then when im home..around 6.30pm..
i text him again say dat i reach home..
He didnt reply...
then i online lo...suddenly he msn he say that he just finish dinner...wtf???
why didnt tell me 1???
Okay..(starting beh song d...chill...)
then i dc...(wat a day~~!!)*rolling my eyes..
I went for dinner...
About an hour he didnt message me to ask whether im DC-ed?!!
I messaged him past 1hour....and THOUSANDS OF CALLS BUT NO ANSWERS AND REPLY~!!!
What again with this guy o???
then he text me say his phone silent d...studying...
OKAY!!!!!FINE!!!!!
then i ask him to call me...few message in a row he asked me why want call...then he refuse to...say he wants to study.
Chill girl...
Damn dulan d...ask u to call me still wan ask why???
Call Gf need any reasons de meh???!!!!!
We don't even sms lot ok??
I need to know wats up to u for the whole damn fucking day, arshole!!!!
I love you thats why i ask about you..and u like dont care like that..CB....
later on...i dulan d...
straight off my phone...
LIE TO MYSELF THAT I OFF PHONE THEN HE WONT ABLE TO REACH ME.
and imagine that will he coming to my house??
Nah....
After my dinner...he stil at his fucking dog house..
and i switch on my phone...
Guess what???
I JUST RECEIVED A GOOD NIGHT MESSAGE FROM HIM!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK????!?!!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Chil...chill....
then i ask him to call me...with phone...and he called me in MSN.
then bcuz my mic got prob then oni he called me....
damn many excuse o this fella.....
Then...i cried in the phone...saying how depressed and how frustrating i am....
he still remain so dont care likthat...
everything ends up with his phone credit habis~~~
den he stil dare to talk like he did nothing wrong...like i did wrong~
he say...
My credit RM0.00 d..happy d??
KANASAI...

Why this world still have this kind of boyfriend??

Wat the fuck...

2009-04-26T18:57:00.002+08:00

Today he went hiking even i dont want him to.
He just can reject his friend...
Every of his friend's last min plan he will LOVE to join..
but our date...Need to plan...save money or what heck..
This morning he didnt message me at all on the way going...
Until 12pm we started to text.
I really fed up with his 爱理不理!!!!!!
Tell me what to do??
Ignore him for few weeks??
Cool idea!!
But i need him to fetch me to work...how ignore???!!

Guys....Duuhhh~~~

2009-04-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

This guy is really 犯贱!!!!
When I treat him nice..he dont want to bother me..
But when I ignores him..he comes right back to me...
Like today morning.When i woke..i was damn dulan cuz i cant go to work d.....
then i didnt text him or sms him...

Until 2.43pm....He message me in MSN.

Him: wat ya doing? I go bath sin.
Him: back le
Me: so fast
Him: @@ later goin out le
(I knew it!I KNEW IT!!!!!)
me: I knew laz9 u dun even wana ask me along
Him: cos i tot u going work, so u can join us d
Me: wat oso u think enuff d
Him : ya lo@@
(Chibai...dulan la....)
Me: yea,so bug off
Him o.o
Me: If u so like to tot with urself, den dun bother me kay?
Him: I go out now le la, reach d sms u ba, tata, makz
Me: nonid le, i dun wish to hav any communication wif u.annoying. bye.
Him: o
(well done!!!)
Me: i dun like being your 2nd tot, wat u tot just tot for urself nia. selfish!

No more replies....

That time is around 3pm.

Then, i thinks that we wont be having any messages after this.
But then around 3:40pm...
I received this sms...:

"Dear dear~~~wat u doing a~~~?"

I was like...Why he is like tak faham bahasa??
1stly i felt annoy...but 2ndly im glad he texted me...because i can know he cares.Then i replied him 1hour later...

Cuz i got nothing to say to him....

What a guy....
(Rolling my eyes)

My Lovely Dog

2009-04-25T15:08:00.005+08:00

Aiyoyo...i shy lehh....mm~~~ XD

Hey U! Who r u?!

Im very cute de lo~

She is my lovely dog..
Her name is PiPi not PeePee har~
She is so hyperactive~!
SO ADORABLE~

My sis Small Photo Shooting Section

2009-04-25T14:34:00.005+08:00

Last last week i think...just right before exam..
I had a small photo shooting for my sister~

XD
These are the best shots.....

Sweet isn't she??
haha~

Feeling

2009-04-25T02:28:00.002+08:00

Feeling Lonely again...
There's no need to tell him..
He would never understand...
He will never willing to understand....

That's why I'm always suspecting he don't love me...
Because that's what he showed me...

I need to put on my mask...
Fake him a smile
and tell him I'm okay,
I'm happy....
I really am..

Tactics

2009-04-25T02:10:00.003+08:00

Love is Just about Tactics....
I used it when we started together again...
but seems like i need to use it again now...
Things are getting worse...
Need to figure out....

The Brilliant Tactics:
1,Treat him nice
2,Smile whenever see him or anything comes up.
3,Take good care of him and makes him feel regret of any of his mistakes.
4, I'm a Devil behind him.

LOLX!!!
Enough of nonsense!!!
I really need figure it out...
How to fix.....
How to fix him and let him fix us~

XD
FUNNY~~!!!!!!

五月天-天使 What a Nice song~!

2009-04-25T01:18:00.003+08:00

你就是我的天使

保护著我的天使

从此我再没有忧伤

你就是我的天使

给我快乐的天使

甚至我学会了飞翔

飞过人间的无常

才懂爱才是宝藏

不管世界变得怎麼样

只要有你就会是天堂

像孩子依赖著肩膀

像眼泪依赖著脸庞

你就像天使一样

给我依赖给我力量

像诗人依赖著月亮

像海豚依赖海洋

你是天使你是天使

你是我最初和最後的天堂

music

你就是我的天使

保护著我的天使

从此我再没有忧伤

你就是我的天使

给我快乐的天使

甚至我学会了飞翔

飞过人间的无常

才懂爱才是宝藏

不管世界变得怎麼样

只要有你就会是天堂

像孩子依赖著肩膀

像眼泪依赖著脸庞

你就像天使一样

给我依赖给我力量

像诗人依赖著月亮

像海豚依赖海洋

你是天使你是天使

你是我最初和最後的天堂

music

像孩子依赖著肩膀

像眼泪依赖著脸庞

你就像天使一样

给我依赖给我力量

像诗人依赖著月亮

像海豚依赖海洋

你是天使你是天使

你是我最初和最後的天堂

像孩子依赖著肩膀

像眼泪依赖著脸庞

你就像天使一样

给我依赖给我力量

像诗人依赖著月亮

像海豚依赖海洋

你是天使你是天使

你是我最初和最後的天堂

This Is the Piano Version:

天使 Tian Shi - 五月天 Mayday

The Full Song:

mayday tian shi

走投无路

2009-04-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

爱上了不会为我设想的人……
不会惦记我的人……

我该怎么办？？

Bye bye....

2009-04-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

I think i have to say bye bye to my RM70 le.......

SOBBBBBB....reli sad.....

2009-04-24T20:18:00.001+08:00

I feel like...leaving him for few weeks....without telling.
means ignore la...
I can do it...

But My biggest problem now....is....

How am i going to work tomorrow???!!!!!!

Just Fuck it!!

2009-04-24T19:51:00.004+08:00

We just fought again...
Today morning before i come back..
I told him that i would like to join the gang to go eat Kajang Sate..but due to he have to go back and have dinner with his family..so i cant join..
In the car, hetold me that he have to go back early..this meaning that he wont be coming to my home after his exam.last night when he told me about this dinner..he sounds so serious.
like a very important dinner la..so im okay with it lo..
Later after he sent me home around 1pm+ then he went to his Design exam.
Before i get off from the car..once he told me again..he will be going back earlier.
Kay then...
He didnt sms to tell me that once he reached college u know??!
Never mind..I dont care..maybe he is rushing...
Then i just online..and surfing around to hilang bosan la...

Around 6.15pm he sms me that he is going to join them at Kajang Sate!!!And he is ON THE WAY NOW!!

Wtf??! Shouldnt he tell me earlier??
I straight piss of, he make decision like never think of me.
Then we fought..i cried. and he didnt apologiz at all!!!!
and he dont feel sorry..he dont feel anything except im being troublesome.
I cried because he never thinks about me. He never remember my things.
He didnt care whether im alone or not of what fuck.
(but later i realize im really being over reacting la~!!)

Tomorrow i got a job at Sunway Lagoon, and we reached agreement that he will fecthing me go.
And now, he ask me dont fan him and take KTM go!!!
How i go??6am i have to reach there!!
means from 5am i need to be in train.
But he is okay with me taking the train alone early in the morning.
He didnt worry that i will get rob, rape or being a victim in any crime cases...
Just so damn not fair and irresponsible!!!

Why when with me he can say he want to go back but when his friend asked him to go out, he can even cancel his dinner with his family???!!!!

Maybe im really being such a trouble and burden to him.
Fuck this guy...
Such a spoilt brat!

he still insist not to apologize for what he did.
CB...fuck him la..always thinks that he is right! He dont even want to call me!
All i can say is..
I should get a life than just being with this shit.
I should change my target.

Oh my god!!!!!

2009-04-24T14:26:00.001+08:00

Im really death buntu with this relationship...

Wat an argue~

2009-04-24T14:14:00.002+08:00

We argued AGAIN....
And it started from here...
Imagine your boyfriend had spent whole day long with his friend in Cyber Cafe,gaming.
And finally he is home around...12.30am??
Then....

[23/4/2009 12:59:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: hmm....
[23/4/2009 12:59:41 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u cnt listen da record o??
[23/4/2009 12:59:58 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: errr...dat song a... u go download...
[23/4/2009 1:00:07 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: Plains White T's 1234
[23/4/2009 1:00:25 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: theres oni 1 thg to do 3words 4u~~~i lurve euu~~
[23/4/2009 1:00:28 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: XD
[23/4/2009 1:00:40 AM] Y@nG says: tak mau=.=
[23/4/2009 1:01:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: huh
[23/4/2009 1:01:04 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: Y?
[23/4/2009 1:01:08 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: not nice meh???!!!
[23/4/2009 1:01:15 AM] Y@nG says: dun lik
[23/4/2009 1:01:19 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ....
[23/4/2009 1:01:22 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: download
[23/4/2009 1:01:23 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i wan
[23/4/2009 1:01:26 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i LOVE IT
[23/4/2009 1:01:34 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i ad find d
[23/4/2009 1:01:40 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: bt duno y all oso cnt dl de
[23/4/2009 1:01:45 AM] Y@nG says: but i dun lik it
[23/4/2009 1:01:54 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u cant dl for me?
[23/4/2009 1:02:10 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: smal thgs lik dis oso cant do 4me?
[23/4/2009 1:02:35 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: wt....u jz like to make my mood la
[23/4/2009 1:03:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: dat time u stil sing dao vry shuang de now u tell me u dun like
[23/4/2009 1:03:48 AM] Y@nG says: i really dun lik dat songah
[23/4/2009 1:03:54 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: den dl for me la
[23/4/2009 1:04:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: cant?
[23/4/2009 1:04:08 AM] Y@nG says: o
[23/4/2009 1:04:15 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: laz time u wun likdis de lo
[23/4/2009 1:04:21 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: y u sudenly so diao 1?
[23/4/2009 1:05:12 AM] Y@nG says: huh?
[23/4/2009 1:05:17 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u like to reject me o?dun u think my feeling?
[23/4/2009 1:05:27 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: small thgs u lik 2 object
[23/4/2009 1:05:52 AM] Y@nG says: object?
[23/4/2009 1:06:02 AM] Y@nG says: i got reject u meh?
[23/4/2009 1:06:04 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: object,disagree
[23/4/2009 1:06:10 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: jz now i ask u dl u say duwan
[23/4/2009 1:06:10 AM] Y@nG says: o
[23/4/2009 1:06:13 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: not reject?
[23/4/2009 1:06:23 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: not refuse to dl
[23/4/2009 1:06:24 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ?
[23/4/2009 1:06:36 AM] Y@nG says: u say edi find liao
[23/4/2009 1:06:38 AM] Y@nG says: i tot u e di got
[23/4/2009 1:07:07 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u scroll up n c
[23/4/2009 1:07:21 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i not yet say i found liao u ad said tak mau
[23/4/2009 1:07:57 AM] Y@nG says: u din say help u dl lo
[23/4/2009 1:08:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: cant u think about me? put me at 1st?b4 think abt urself?
[23/4/2009 1:08:12 AM] Y@nG says: 00
[23/4/2009 1:08:57 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: stop finding excuse for urself le k?
[23/4/2009 1:09:07 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: if i got ad sure i say i send u
[23/4/2009 1:09:23 AM] Y@nG says: OK LA
EXCUSE K?
[23/4/2009 1:09:37 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: always likdis 1
[23/4/2009 1:11:25 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你对我没有献殷勤过，当我要求你帮忙的时候你就很多话讲。给我负面的反应。
[23/4/2009 1:13:29 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 主动宠我，会很辛苦吗？will it b hard to pamper me without i asking u to?
[23/4/2009 1:14:55 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: when i wana get close to u..u like got thorn 1..kept piercing me alot
[23/4/2009 1:15:50 AM] Y@nG says: sry
[23/4/2009 1:16:27 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你是真心的道歉吗？
[23/4/2009 1:17:08 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:17:45 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: maybe u nid to fully use google
[23/4/2009 1:17:56 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: searching article like how to treat a women well
[23/4/2009 1:18:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: how to treat my gf well
[23/4/2009 1:18:12 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ways to say sorry sincerely
[23/4/2009 1:19:07 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: upgrade urself..u dun even noe how to treat ur gf goodly.
[23/4/2009 1:19:13 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:19:16 AM] Y@nG says: will dela
[23/4/2009 1:19:22 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: serious
[23/4/2009 1:19:27 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:19:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: those article will help u improve our relationship
[23/4/2009 1:19:43 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: IF ONLY U WAN2 IMPROVE
[23/4/2009 1:19:59 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:20:26 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i duwan its jz only me, alone, here that try to work things out.
[23/4/2009 1:20:36 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:20:37 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: and u jus sit thr n wait like no body business
[23/4/2009 1:20:42 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:20:52 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: hav u ever hurt by me?
[23/4/2009 1:21:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: hurt dat makes ur heart pain...n u got no mood n sad all the time?
[23/4/2009 1:21:49 AM] Y@nG says: dunno
[23/4/2009 1:21:54 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: y duno?
[23/4/2009 1:21:55 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: got den got
[23/4/2009 1:21:57 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: no den no
[23/4/2009 1:22:04 AM] Y@nG says: cos dunno
[23/4/2009 1:22:19 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: wei..we not jz noe each other for 1 day or one hour
[23/4/2009 1:22:26 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: almost 2yrs..
[23/4/2009 1:22:30 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:22:31 AM] Y@nG says: noe la
[23/4/2009 1:22:35 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u totally forgotten wat we experience?
[23/4/2009 1:22:44 AM] Y@nG says: no ah
[23/4/2009 1:22:57 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: den how come u will duno u heart pain for me b4 ont??!!
[23/4/2009 1:23:04 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: imposible
[23/4/2009 1:23:13 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: its not reasonable
[23/4/2009 1:23:21 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: its not aceptable for any1
[23/4/2009 1:23:35 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:23:42 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: answer me la
[23/4/2009 1:23:57 AM] Y@nG says: dunno
[23/4/2009 1:24:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: why duno again??
[23/4/2009 1:24:06 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u got think ont?
[23/4/2009 1:24:10 AM] Y@nG says: gt ah
[23/4/2009 1:24:14 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: den????
[23/4/2009 1:24:20 AM] Y@nG says: dunno
[23/4/2009 1:24:24 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ur brain duno how to produce conclusion?
[23/4/2009 1:24:35 AM] Y@nG says: dunno
[23/4/2009 1:24:38 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: fk it
[23/4/2009 1:24:42 AM] Y@nG says: fk lo
[23/4/2009 1:24:51 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: dun always giv me more ???? when i gt ???? all ovr my brain la
[23/4/2009 1:25:04 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: GIVE ME AN ANSWER LA
[23/4/2009 1:25:07 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ANSWER
[23/4/2009 1:25:13 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: NO MORE QUESTIONS
[23/4/2009 1:25:17 AM] Y@nG says: u dunno c meh? oso said dunno lo
[23/4/2009 1:25:19 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: I WANA MAKE SURE ALL THOSE THGS
[23/4/2009 1:25:25 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: IF NOT I TOTALLY LOST IN U
[23/4/2009 1:25:37 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: U R NOT ANSWERING MY QUESTION
[23/4/2009 1:25:45 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: DONT GIV ME NEUTRAL ANSWER
[23/4/2009 1:26:12 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: it doesnt make me feel any better u noe?
[23/4/2009 1:26:28 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 要什么时候你才可以肯定？？
[23/4/2009 1:26:31 AM] Y@nG says: en
[23/4/2009 1:26:37 AM] Y@nG says: dunno
[23/4/2009 1:26:40 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你不能肯定我们之间的事情
[23/4/2009 1:28:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我们只不过是不重要的关系吧了是吗？为什么你总是表现得漠不关心？也没有行动？
[23/4/2009 1:28:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 爱怎会没有行动？
[23/4/2009 1:28:22 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 没有答案？
[23/4/2009 1:28:51 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你对我们的关系不肯定吗？我们的关系不清楚吗？
[23/4/2009 1:29:24 AM] Y@nG says: goin to dota le
[23/4/2009 1:29:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你对我们的一切都没有答案。
[23/4/2009 1:29:41 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: only after u settle these thgs
[23/4/2009 1:29:48 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u dun jz ignore
[23/4/2009 1:29:53 AM] Y@nG says: I TOLD U I DUNNO LO
[23/4/2009 1:29:54 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: den sudenly go off
[23/4/2009 1:30:04 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: left me with these 疑问
[23/4/2009 1:30:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: assure me wif u
[23/4/2009 1:30:29 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 让我肯定这段感情。
[23/4/2009 1:30:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 肯定你。
[23/4/2009 1:30:49 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我没有安全感，因为你没有给我任何安全感。
[23/4/2009 1:31:07 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你没有给我保障
[23/4/2009 1:31:54 AM] Y@nG says: start liao
[23/4/2009 1:31:56 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我需要你给我肯定！
[23/4/2009 1:32:15 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: izit game more important than prob between us?
[23/4/2009 1:32:20 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u went CC gaming whole day liao
[23/4/2009 1:32:25 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: now lil time oso cant giv me?
[23/4/2009 1:32:49 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: is dat so?????
[23/4/2009 1:37:34 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: c how u leave me alone again??
[23/4/2009 1:37:46 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i giv u freedom...bt c how u treat me now??
[23/4/2009 1:37:58 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: C HOW U TREAT ME NOW???!!!!
[23/4/2009 1:38:09 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: WHEN I NID UR ACCOMPANY
[23/4/2009 1:38:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: U GIVE ME 0!!!!!!
[23/4/2009 1:38:26 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: U GIV ME NOTHING BUT ALONE!!!!!!!
[23/4/2009 1:38:53 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: U LEAVE ME CRYING
[23/4/2009 1:38:59 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: BCUZ OF UR COLDNESS!!!!!!!!!!
[23/4/2009 1:55:30 AM] Y@nG says: i not wan ignore u
[23/4/2009 1:55:37 AM] Y@nG says: i edi told u i got dota d
[23/4/2009 1:55:45 AM] Y@nG says: n den wan start this arguement
[23/4/2009 1:55:47 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: U CANT GIV ME TIME?
[23/4/2009 1:55:55 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ARENT JZ NT I TOLD U DN DOTA?
[23/4/2009 1:55:57 AM] Y@nG says: I TOLD U I DUNNO
[23/4/2009 1:56:13 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: NOT DUNO OR WAT NOW
[23/4/2009 1:56:23 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: is u cant use sum time on me?
[23/4/2009 1:56:33 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: cant u use ur pasiona towards game on me??
[23/4/2009 1:56:41 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: *passion
[23/4/2009 1:56:50 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i ad say dun game d
[23/4/2009 1:56:53 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: bt u insist wana game
[23/4/2009 1:57:00 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: whole day u spent in cc n gaming d
[23/4/2009 1:57:08 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: now lil time oso cant share to me?
[23/4/2009 1:59:33 AM] Y@nG says: i din spent my time on u ma?
[23/4/2009 1:59:39 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: how?
[23/4/2009 1:59:48 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: mor than game?
[23/4/2009 2:00:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: tday i din fan u whole day let u game till u song...
[23/4/2009 2:00:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: now come home...we chat nt an hour den u say u wan game GAIN
[23/4/2009 2:00:57 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: isnt ur action show dat gaming is more important tahn me? than our relationship?!?
[23/4/2009 2:01:11 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: *than
[23/4/2009 2:01:12 AM] Y@nG says: y u so lik to compare u n game?
[23/4/2009 2:01:17 AM] Y@nG says: u so lik to compare wif game?
[23/4/2009 2:01:27 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: y u so lik game?
[23/4/2009 2:01:35 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: y u so lik2 spent ur time wif game than me?
[23/4/2009 2:01:39 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: bcuz im boring?
[23/4/2009 2:01:41 AM] Y@nG says: cos i lik game
[23/4/2009 2:01:47 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: and coz u dun like me?
[23/4/2009 2:01:54 AM] Y@nG says: i din say
[23/4/2009 2:01:57 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: so u rather spend ur time wif game?
[23/4/2009 2:02:00 AM] Y@nG says: c? u lik to compare wif game nia
[23/4/2009 2:02:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: den why?
[23/4/2009 2:02:22 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: surely gona answer duno again le ba?
[23/4/2009 2:02:29 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u whole day gaming le..nt enuf?
[23/4/2009 2:02:34 AM] Y@nG says: nop
[23/4/2009 2:02:50 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u more prefer dat we whole day dun talk dun sms ?
[23/4/2009 2:02:59 AM] Y@nG says: i no prob
[23/4/2009 2:03:13 AM] Y@nG says: not prefer or not prefer but is no prob wif dat
[23/4/2009 2:03:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 那么你终是这段感情吗？
[23/4/2009 2:03:37 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你重视我妈？
[23/4/2009 2:03:47 AM] Y@nG says: Y NOT??
[23/4/2009 2:04:04 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: but y u duwan 经营？
[23/4/2009 2:04:09 AM] Y@nG says: BUT ALWAYS I PLAY GAME DAT TIME U MUST KACAU MI DE LO
[23/4/2009 2:04:17 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 为什么不要用心去对待？
[23/4/2009 2:04:25 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: today i kacau u?
[23/4/2009 2:04:41 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u wan game, i let u game
[23/4/2009 2:04:43 AM] Y@nG says: these time i oso gamin wif them de l
[23/4/2009 2:04:46 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: lik when u at ur house
[23/4/2009 2:04:49 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i got say b4 u cant game
[23/4/2009 2:04:57 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: bt u oso wan game..ok..i let u
[23/4/2009 2:05:01 AM] Y@nG says: A COUPLE MUST EVERYDAY 24HOURS B TGT MER???
[23/4/2009 2:05:10 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: not 24 hours
[23/4/2009 2:05:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: atleast some communication ba?
[23/4/2009 2:05:22 AM] Y@nG says: v dint????
[23/4/2009 2:05:27 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: did v?
[23/4/2009 2:05:29 AM] Y@nG says: v din toked 2day?
[23/4/2009 2:05:41 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ok
[23/4/2009 2:05:48 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u dun wana spend time on me
[23/4/2009 2:05:54 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: is dat true?
[23/4/2009 2:05:55 AM] Y@nG says: i dint??
[23/4/2009 2:06:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: now u did
[23/4/2009 2:06:06 AM] Y@nG says: not dun wan spend time on u
[23/4/2009 2:06:31 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: now u r..u wan game more than want me
[23/4/2009 2:06:36 AM] Y@nG says: u lik to wan mi spend time on u when i;m gamin
[23/4/2009 2:06:37 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: dats da prob
[23/4/2009 2:06:47 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: no
[23/4/2009 2:06:59 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u shudnt b gaming now cuz u gamed for almost whole day
[23/4/2009 2:07:06 AM] Y@nG says: fk la
[23/4/2009 2:07:13 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i wan u spend sum time wif me
[23/4/2009 2:07:23 AM] Y@nG says: who's formula? urs?
[23/4/2009 2:07:39 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: k
[23/4/2009 2:07:42 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: now my fault la
[23/4/2009 2:07:47 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: my fault of wanting u so much
[23/4/2009 2:07:56 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: my fault on needing u so much
[23/4/2009 2:08:06 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: my fault of thinks dat u will think for me
[23/4/2009 2:08:11 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: my fault on evrythg
[23/4/2009 2:08:13 AM] Y@nG says: no
[23/4/2009 2:08:20 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: EVERYTHING
[23/4/2009 2:08:28 AM] Y@nG says: is everytime when i going to game..u must suggest all these issues
[23/4/2009 2:08:42 AM] Y@nG says: suddenly when i wan do sumthing, u sure will got sum question
[23/4/2009 2:08:49 AM] Y@nG says: askin this askin that
[23/4/2009 2:08:55 AM] Y@nG says: den i dunno answer
[23/4/2009 2:09:02 AM] Y@nG says: den u wan start quarrel d de
[23/4/2009 2:09:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: B4 U SAY U WANA GAME WE AD DISCUSSING THE QUESTION
[23/4/2009 2:09:09 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: DUN SAY LIK I PURPOSELY DO DAT
[23/4/2009 2:09:10 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: I DIDNT!
[23/4/2009 2:09:14 AM] Y@nG says: JUS NOW I TOLD U I MIGHT GAME D DE
[23/4/2009 2:09:23 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i told u better dun game
[23/4/2009 2:09:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起
[23/4/2009 2:09:46 AM] Y@nG says: but i can hav my own opinion rite???
[23/4/2009 2:09:50 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 要你那么辛苦得面对我。
[23/4/2009 2:10:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我老师对感情没有信心，没有安全感。
[23/4/2009 2:10:47 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我是个女声，需要你的呵护。
[23/4/2009 2:11:28 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我是女声，常常会有一大堆黄淼的想法要你认同。
[23/4/2009 2:11:37 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我没办法像你这样向。
[23/4/2009 2:11:56 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我认为你花时间陪我是理所当然的
[23/4/2009 2:12:19 AM] Y@nG says: so now u wan mi answer u?
[23/4/2009 2:12:23 AM] Y@nG says: "nvm"?
[23/4/2009 2:12:35 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我不是你向往的女声对象。
[23/4/2009 2:13:41 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我没有能力让你对我好一点。
[23/4/2009 2:13:43 AM] Y@nG says: n...dun always determine my xiang fa, wat u thk i am, might not really true
[23/4/2009 2:14:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 对不起因为我不能让我爱的男人多爱我，多关心我一点。
(actually when im saying sorry is because im damn piss off..my sorry is like...teasing...)
[23/4/2009 2:14:53 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: but u nvr show ur true self to me
[23/4/2009 2:15:07 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: the fact that u gave me n u show me is duno n blank
[23/4/2009 2:15:11 AM] Y@nG says: everyday nid lik dat quarrel, argue, i really veli fedup de
[23/4/2009 2:15:21 AM] Y@nG says: the fact is i dunno
[23/4/2009 2:15:33 AM] Y@nG says: i tell u dunno means i dunno, u still wan ask so much
[23/4/2009 2:16:09 AM] Y@nG says: afk
[23/4/2009 2:16:57 AM] Y@nG says: back
[23/4/2009 2:17:26 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我道歉并不是因为要你原谅。是因为我太没有本事了。
[23/4/2009 2:17:48 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 不明白HL是怎么搞得你那么死心塌地那么为了他执著。
[23/4/2009 2:18:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 这份执着是在你对我的身上看不到的。
[23/4/2009 2:18:36 AM] Y@nG says: u dun compare u n her
[23/4/2009 2:18:53 AM] Y@nG says: she is jus rubbish
[23/4/2009 2:19:23 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u noe wat...
[23/4/2009 2:19:38 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i felt thrs a big hole insid my heart here...
[23/4/2009 2:20:13 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i cnt acept dat im jz so lil thg to u....
[23/4/2009 2:20:51 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 可有可无
[23/4/2009 2:21:12 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我以为我对你来说是必须的。
[23/4/2009 2:21:22 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 是每天都需要的。
[23/4/2009 2:21:28 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 不可缺少的。
[23/4/2009 2:21:39 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 原来不是。
[23/4/2009 2:21:53 AM] Y@nG says: is not ke you ke wu
[23/4/2009 2:21:56 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 他是垃圾，那么你会用什么来形容我？
[23/4/2009 2:22:40 AM] Y@nG says: u jus dunno how important u r to mi
[23/4/2009 2:22:43 AM] Y@nG says: is veli important
[23/4/2009 2:22:46 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 以前你告诉我，你喜欢我粘着你。现在你告诉我，即使一整天没有说话你也不在乎。
[23/4/2009 2:23:22 AM] Y@nG says: wo shi xi huan ni lian zhe wo
[23/4/2009 2:23:31 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我接收不到你的变化。
[23/4/2009 2:23:48 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我也要你粘着我啊！
[23/4/2009 2:24:21 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 可是你都没有……么次都好像我在一厢情愿……
[23/4/2009 2:24:47 AM] Y@nG says: 不过不是除了虽觉以外都要一直保持联络啊
[23/4/2009 2:25:28 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我把你说的每句话都铭记于心，你把我说的话转身就忘记
[23/4/2009 2:25:32 AM] Y@nG says: 你为什么每次都要自以为是？？
[23/4/2009 2:25:49 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 因为你从来就没有给我肯定的答案
[23/4/2009 2:26:01 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 总是让我自己猜想
[23/4/2009 2:26:02 AM] Y@nG says: 没有吗？？
[23/4/2009 2:26:31 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 那你为什么都要那么我行我素？
[23/4/2009 2:26:57 AM] Y@nG says: 我追肯定的就是我是真真确确的只爱你一个而已！！
[23/4/2009 2:27:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 就算我又告诉你我的困扰，你还是找着你的意思去做。
[23/4/2009 2:27:22 AM] Y@nG says: 什么困扰？？
[23/4/2009 2:28:00 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我已经很久很久很久没有说你爱别人了。也很久没问你，你爱我吗？因为我知道是多余的。
[23/4/2009 2:28:15 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 就像上次snuker
[23/4/2009 2:28:48 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 是真真切切*
[23/4/2009 2:29:46 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 为什么我紧张你是会帮你，但你得紧张就是不会有立刻挺身的行动？
[23/4/2009 2:29:57 AM] Y@nG says: 那个只是我不想因为我去玩你又一直在那边讲
[23/4/2009 2:30:08 AM] Y@nG says: 你不是不知道你自己
[23/4/2009 2:30:39 AM] Y@nG says: 因为之前我跟你说过我要回家
[23/4/2009 2:30:46 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我是说我很累的那次你还坚持要去玩
[23/4/2009 2:31:11 AM] Y@nG says: 因为我的朋友全部都有去啊
[23/4/2009 2:31:31 AM] Y@nG says: 我不去的话不就很扫兴了吗？？
[23/4/2009 2:31:59 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 但是你听过我说多少次的累？就像今天，就算我没说累还是什么。但是hian还是猜中了我的心情。
[23/4/2009 2:32:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我不是累。只是心情很糟，
[23/4/2009 2:32:25 AM] Y@nG says: 猜中什么？
[23/4/2009 2:32:33 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 提不起精神，用累来当借口。
[23/4/2009 2:32:37 AM] Y@nG says: 情绪低落？
[23/4/2009 2:32:43 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 记得吗？在车里面。
[23/4/2009 2:32:47 AM] Y@nG says: 我懂
[23/4/2009 2:32:57 AM] Y@nG says: 没有讲bale
[23/4/2009 2:33:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 我没有说什么话，也没有笑。
[23/4/2009 2:33:13 AM] Y@nG says: 裤口苦面
[23/4/2009 2:33:18 AM] Y@nG says: 苦口
[23/4/2009 2:33:32 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 连hian 和 esther 都看得出来，问我。
[23/4/2009 2:33:43 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 你……就什么都没有说。
[23/4/2009 2:33:51 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 也没有主动安慰我。
[23/4/2009 2:34:06 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 也没有要靠近我。
[23/4/2009 2:34:22 AM] Y@nG says: because i veli down wif the exam d
[23/4/2009 2:34:23 AM] Y@nG says: veli fan
[23/4/2009 2:34:27 AM] Y@nG says: anyway
[23/4/2009 2:34:30 AM] Y@nG says: i vel tired now d
[23/4/2009 2:34:33 AM] Y@nG says: can tok 2moro?
[23/4/2009 2:35:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: wake up d tell me..oni i think wat time go ovr thr
[23/4/2009 2:35:09 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u slp now?
[23/4/2009 2:35:12 AM] Y@nG says: ya
[23/4/2009 2:35:25 AM] Y@nG says: 2moro only say ba
[23/4/2009 2:35:37 AM] Y@nG says: u got money?
[23/4/2009 2:35:40 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: say wat?wan me go ovr ont?
[23/4/2009 2:35:45 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: got
[23/4/2009 2:35:49 AM] Y@nG says: how much u got
[23/4/2009 2:35:52 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: 60
[23/4/2009 2:35:55 AM] Y@nG says: erm
[23/4/2009 2:35:57 AM] Y@nG says: 2moro
[23/4/2009 2:36:04 AM] Y@nG says: v might goin to pyramid
[23/4/2009 2:36:11 AM] Y@nG says: zh wan buy sumthign
[23/4/2009 2:36:14 AM] Y@nG says: so if can
[23/4/2009 2:36:23 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ok oso..cuz i wan ask u out d de..i oso wan buy sumthg
[23/4/2009 2:36:25 AM] Y@nG says: u can str8 go ktm den take taxi to pyramid?
[23/4/2009 2:36:30 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ///
[23/4/2009 2:36:32 AM] Y@nG says: 4+ ??
[23/4/2009 2:36:34 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: MEAN
[23/4/2009 2:36:37 AM] Y@nG says: swt
[23/4/2009 2:36:42 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: U R MEAN
[23/4/2009 2:36:44 AM] Y@nG says: cos i no nid go big round mar
[23/4/2009 2:36:45 AM] Y@nG says: =.=
[23/4/2009 2:36:54 AM] Y@nG says: wait har
[23/4/2009 2:36:54 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: FOR GF OSO LIKDIS
[23/4/2009 2:37:01 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: SELFISH!
[23/4/2009 2:37:02 AM] Y@nG says: erm
[23/4/2009 2:37:05 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: MEAN!
[23/4/2009 2:37:08 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: NEAB!
[23/4/2009 2:37:16 AM] Y@nG says: wait wait
[23/4/2009 2:37:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: MEAN!
[23/4/2009 2:37:19 AM] Y@nG says: diam diam awhile=.=
[23/4/2009 2:37:23 AM] Y@nG says: let mi thk thk har
[23/4/2009 2:37:30 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: U VERY THE MEAN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[23/4/2009 2:37:49 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i cry til wan vomit liao
[23/4/2009 2:37:53 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: T_T
[23/4/2009 2:37:57 AM] Y@nG says: if u take ktm is go to the subang carefour there?
[23/4/2009 2:38:13 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: yea
[23/4/2009 2:38:21 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: my chest damn pain weih
[23/4/2009 2:39:02 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: u dun so mean ah i tell u
[23/4/2009 2:39:15 AM] Y@nG says: erm
[23/4/2009 2:39:16 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ltr chop 9 ur dick u dun cry
[23/4/2009 2:39:22 AM] Y@nG says: 2moro i fetch u at sp ba
[23/4/2009 2:39:27 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: YEY~
[23/4/2009 2:39:38 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: chest vry the pain....
[23/4/2009 2:40:10 AM] Y@nG says: sayang sayang
[23/4/2009 2:40:15 AM] Y@nG says: go slp la
[23/4/2009 2:40:17 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ovr emo d
[23/4/2009 2:40:21 AM] Y@nG says: nite ntie le la
[23/4/2009 2:40:22 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: cried too hard
[23/4/2009 2:40:27 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: duwan!
[23/4/2009 2:40:35 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: tmr wat time?
[23/4/2009 2:40:40 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: i mean
[23/4/2009 2:40:43 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: later wat time?
[23/4/2009 2:41:02 AM] Y@nG says: duno
[23/4/2009 2:41:13 AM] Y@nG says: they wake mi up i thk
[23/4/2009 2:41:14 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: abt?
[23/4/2009 2:41:15 AM] Y@nG says: =.=
[23/4/2009 2:41:17 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: ///
[23/4/2009 2:41:18 AM] Y@nG says: later only ask them
[23/4/2009 2:41:20 AM] Y@nG says: u go slp sin ba
[23/4/2009 2:41:30 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: they wake u u nid go out fast d wor
[23/4/2009 2:41:36 AM] Y@nG says: no nid la
[23/4/2009 2:41:41 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: bt im coming so far
[23/4/2009 2:41:47 AM] Y@nG says: later i ask them str8 mc mi when they wake
[23/4/2009 2:41:54 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: swt
[23/4/2009 2:41:56 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: den me leh?
[23/4/2009 2:42:03 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: my distance
[23/4/2009 2:42:12 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: T_T
[23/4/2009 2:42:26 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: can u evryday say how much important to u?
[23/4/2009 2:42:38 AM] I'm juZ for mySelf says: can u evryday show me how much i meant to u?
[23/4/2009 2:43:55 AM] Y@nG says: try la
....wth......

I dunoo~~!!

2009-04-22T23:38:00.003+08:00

This picture of me were took by him when i first bought my DSLR.

Yea..and during a lot of twist and turn between us...
Finally I learnt something...

Maybe i should keep myself like this...
Love him more.
So that he can feel me even we are not around..
And avoid him to lie.

I will try to be his angel..

Can I??

Just now i loose a bit control and asked him
: are u also give up on our relationship?
He said: No la.
But why is he acting so cold??

If you love me..
Why u would not show me in a passionate way??

Geezz....
Shouldnt think so much....

我的天使

2009-04-21T22:35:00.003+08:00

冷漠让我情绪低落……
他让我觉得没有力气。
为什么偏偏考试的时候会这样？！
让我无法集中精神！！

谁能够当我的天使？让我有元气？
我需要可以依靠的肩膀！
我需要一个不会让我流泪的人！

是靠近却又遥不可及的感觉……
想关心又觉得没必要的感觉……
力不从心……

有谁看见我的天使吗？

后遗症

2009-04-21T16:43:00.004+08:00

我们本来星期日就分手了。
是我突然不要。
因为这次是他提的。
虽然他没有坚持……
但我觉得他冷淡了。
或许他不是真的冷淡了，因为有些时候还是看到他的付出。
但…
当他说了如我所愿分手吧！那句话时，我已经判了这段感情死刑。
我想他也一样。
我说不要，是因为不甘心！
不甘心他没有珍惜，也没有补偿就分开！
昨天见了面，
他表现得很冷漠。我也不想理。
我觉得我也对他冷漠吧？
因为当他闹我玩的时候我也表现得很冷漠。
是冷漠，还是小心翼翼？
都有吧？

我发觉…… 我已经不会再在乎那么多了。

2009-04-19T17:19:00.003+08:00

似乎好久都没有幸福的感觉了……
似乎好久都是孤独一人……
似乎他对感情已经没有盼望也没有努力了……
剩下孤单的我……
要怎么撑？

我已经……精疲力尽了……
永远都会是我一个人……

iM BACK~

2008-12-22T01:38:00.001+08:00

NOW I KNOW I HAVE A LONG ABANDONED BLOGSPOT HERE~!!IMBACK NOW AND WILL BE POSTING EVERY SINGLE UPDATES OF MY LIFE~

不懂…

2007-03-21T15:03:00.000+08:00

之前跟男友－N，吵架…
原因是因为一个朋友-n…
那个朋友喜欢上我了…所以，N很生气。
说我为什么一直和他联络…
其实我只要一个朋友而已…
因为n肯聆听我…肯听我抱怨。
我不管n对我有什么居心，但是我依然把他当作朋友看待…
而且，我们都说好了。只是朋友而且只做朋友…
怎知，n竟然说
「我不想只当你的朋友！！」
虽然早有点知道他的心意，但是我毕竟要保持矜持…
我是有男朋友的女生…
所以也尽量说话客气点…我从来没有和他暧昧过…
我真的很想保留他这位朋友，
我也更想保留我这位男朋友…
所以…已经很久没联络上他了…
我想，他也知道什么事情…
所以就算上线也没出来。
他… …
从来都没主动联络我…
对于这点，我有点被玩弄的感觉…
这个，是朋友吗？？
我想，我那时候开始在依赖他了吧…？？
希望他看到这篇文章吧！！

我想…

2007-03-20T01:52:00.000+08:00

我想…现在事情应该可以恢复进行了吧？？
嗯…但愿吧！！
不能当兵，将我的三个月空了出来…
有点失措…首先该去找学校…
然后配合时间找part-time…
感情问题其实也应该没什么了…希望我们没有问题是隐瞒着的问题还没解决…
都是成年人了，处事方面应该更为成熟…理性…
毕竟感情是属于感性的…要理性并不难…，但也不容易…
I don'y like when someone keeps a secret from me....
I really do...
嗯…有谁喜欢呢？？
呵呵…
文章…写得再好，没人欣赏也是白费的…
应该找个时间安静自己…
因为在过不了多久，我就会做个不像我的我。
一个成功还是成事不足败事有余的人…
就是接下来的几年可以改变我的一生…
任何一个决定都要做的很仔细…
我需要支持…
宝贝会给我元气吧？？？^^
其实有时候很怕打扰宝贝…因为他很忙又很累…
矛盾………………………………………………
自己又乱了………………
愚蠢的我，
怕做不到他心里所向往的女生…………
笨蛋！！！！！！！！！！！！
在想什么？？！！！
唉…睡吧…

我做对了选择吗？

2006-08-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

现在和他已经三个月了。开不开心，你们也晓得吧？如果不开心，我也不会和他那么久。选择，的确还蛮难的。因为现在出现了一个条件比他好很多倍的男生出现。你看，我已经半年没男生追求了！！可想我有多惨吧？
虽然这只是传言或是绯闻，但我却非常的在意。教会的朋友都很支持我和他在一起。知道的人都说：“他不错啊！为什么不答应他？”现在我在这里提出几个问题：
1）你们也懂我有男友了，为什么还要逼我？
2〕他根本没有展开追求，我怎么答应？怎么拒绝？
3）这是他朋友传出来的，并没有据实，什么都不懂，怎么决定？
4）他朋友比他还积极打给我，和我聊天，弄得我心惊胆战。真的很烦，我不知道他居心何在！
5）我跟他认识不到半年，我怎么接受得了？况且他比我还小两年！！
6）既然他条件那么好，不如留下给更好的女生，以免他摧毁在我手里。
7）我是个很专一的人，除非对方对不起自己，否则我是不会与对方分手。
8）我不是一个三心两意的人！我不会越馗！！！我也不要！
9）要我亲口拒绝他，我当然不舍得，并不是因为我喜欢他，而是因为我当他是朋友。做人没必要那么绝！如果我说过什么很过分的话，都是身边的人逼迫的！！
10）如果他真的那么喜欢我，已经无法自拔了...为了保住我们的友谊，我希望他不会跟我表白。我希望他会默默地陪着我。
我不是贪心，而是我要再寻找另个更好的解决方法。好让不伤害到我们还有身边的人！我更不想伤害到爱我的人和我爱的人。
希望你们看了会明白，可以体谅我的立场！
谢谢！
琪敬上

我那日的感受....

2006-08-13T00:28:00.001+08:00

去了他家一趟，在他面前拿起手机来看看他的信息。虽然这样很不道德，但是我....嗯...那应该是说，我们的习惯吧。他让我看他的信息，我也顺便看看他写过什么发给其他的女生咯！结果...我看到两封是特别地挑逗性的信息....
信息一：
我还没吃哦！等你来喂我啦！
信息二：
试下交往一个礼拜先再决定！
我当时就快崩溃了。我过了阵子才问他，关于信息内容是否属实。他吞吞吐吐的....天也晓得什么啦！！我立刻埋头于枕头里。眼睛不争气得....流下了泪。我在想：今天我不该来！！我根本就不该来！！！
他尝试抱着我、抓着我的双手...但他的举动都一一被我甩开了。当我正准备要走时，他从后面抱着我。什么也没说。正常的，我将他的手推开。在这时，眼泪再次流下。很快的，他又将双手紧搂着我的腰。当我将双手准备拉开他的手之际。赫然发现....我的肩膀....湿透了....他...哭了......此时，我更泣不成声。
这时我流下的泪，是因为他也流泪。不再是因为他的错。刚刚我准备拉开他的手时停顿在他手上的双手。渐渐软了.....就像在电影里一样。我可以真正的感受到那种的心软。心里用了很大得勇气推开，但力气总是使不在自己的手上。
“我不想放开你！”
他很坚决的说。我沉默。因为我所要说的话都被眼泪吞噬了。他这句话犹如针孔将药剂打入血管里面。深深地注入我的心里，让我无力反驳.....这是我真正体会到“有气无力”这句话。
之后他道了很多次谦，说他会立刻跟那个女生说清楚。因为赶时间的缘故，我就走了。之后，应该不会再怎样了吧？？希望吧！！

无题（一）

2006-07-31T21:38:00.000+08:00

最近的早上，空气总是冷的不得了。再这样下去，我恐怕我快不行了！你们要为我加油！！！
(31/7)六点钟：
闹钟响了。身为一位少年人，不管愿不愿意都会得学习如何让自己准时起床。哪怕还有十五分钟前醒了，但还是会安慰自己说：“还早。在睡多一会....”朦胧中感觉到一闭上眼睛不久，闹钟却很不争气得响了。最后，还不是一样要从床上爬起。那，就是我新的一天的开始。我有的时间不多，所以一起床就会在一分钟之内把自己弄的清醒点，以免发生意外。
（31/7）六点半：
我虽然还没有完全清醒，但至少还看见前面的路。六点半就应该出去门口等巴士了。外面还下着绵绵细雨，冷风犹如百根针刺入我的骨子里。身体不禁打了个战。在去学校的路途中，我总爱思考。人生，及我自己。
（31/7）七点半：
在学校待着已经有一个小时多了，我冷得拿起书包将手卷起来，取暖。课室外仍然还下着绵绵细雨。我朋友说今天是华人农历七夕，下的雨，不是雨；而是织女的泪。悲哀！空气依然那么冷，凝固了我的呼吸，我的心跳。也许这种气候不太适合我，因为熄灭了我内心的火。凝空发呆，就会想起你的微笑。拿起手机，看到你送的吊饰－－很幸福。一股暖流注入我的心，仿佛四周变的没有那么冷了。
（31/7）八点半：
吸了一口冷空气，仿佛失去了自己。也许不该想那么多，算了！！还是睡觉吧！！

约在今天

2006-07-28T21:15:00.000+08:00

今天嘛....就叫他逃学陪我咯。那是因为他心情不好，我想亲自开解他。所以就叫他留了下来....很开心，因为可以和他渡过一天。因为见到对方，而感到安心。今天，他又吵我买衣服了。他吵我买的不是他的衣服，而是他想买衣服给我却遭到我的频频拒绝。因为我不想浪费他的钱，也因为我知道他还没有那个经济能力去负责我的费用。所以，我们就这样，在商店的门外拉拉扯扯的。他硬要把我“拖”进商店里，买一套情侣装。真是败给他叻！！！他真的很诚恳的要求我答应让他买。但我知道他的状况，所以并没有让他这么做。
我....应该算是个好情人吧？？嘻嘻嘻.....
还有还有三天，我们就三个月了！！！！！太好了！！！我们可以维持那么久的感情！！！
祝福我们吧！！！

一种心情 (一)

2006-07-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

（27/7）早上六点半:
虽然现在天还很暗，但我还是希望能见到曙光。我，不再是我，是因为我选择了一切都听他的。我把一切责任和决定，都交到他的手上。他说的，我都听。他想怎样，我就怎样。也许是想太多，也许我没错。
（27/7）早上八点半：
我已经失去了反驳的力量，因为我放弃了反抗的权利。我，不想当坏人。我真的是想太多了！！想得心中的泪，也慢慢化成了眼中的泪，流下。
天，就快下起雨来。每滴雨，都代表着我的泪；我的爱。我一直都没有放弃对他的感觉。我保留着那一丝丝的单纯。单纯地相信他很忙，单纯地相信他的承诺。单纯地....相信他说，及他给的一切。
（27/7）早上九点半：
有一种很远的感觉。心里曾经是贴得很近。那种感觉....多么地温馨，温柔。现在却连叫一声“老公！”都觉得累了。也许，说不出来，也不是件好事。我很会找理由、借口。我的借口很合理地让他毫不怀疑地相信了。而我的实话，他却一直反复质疑.....这叫我更为难受。他根本就抓不到，我心理的痛。
(26/7)时间不明：（回想....）
他有察觉到我的不同。是因为我在一天之内变得如此冷漠。我要他渐渐忘了我....因为我给不到他所要的....好让我，也能渐渐忘了他。

我的地盘，我的言论，我的自由！

Thriller Nite at Maison~

Random

Needing

Tend

什么时候……

Break Up

Being

When

Writing

Should stop Before its too late

End of the world?

However

Just

Happy belated bday to me~

Wuala~!

Hehe~

SImply How i feel.(no offence)

Days

Testing Testing~~

What?!

Sick

Club,CapeSquare,Craziness

Ok..maybe not that secret anymore.

ANother Day

The day

Songs

Feel Like

Its...

Fuck it then!

My 2nd anniversary gift

Moonstone Gemstone meaning:passionate love that will fly you to the moon!!!

Healing properties of Moonstone

Friends?

Phobia 2

So Ironic

Think too much....

Phobia

RM9.90大过天！！

Me and the Bitch~tada~~~ PART 2~

Sigh.

ARGHHH~~~~

Me and the Bitch~tada~~~

Money

Work?

Know

Fucking CB METALTECH STAFF!!

MetalTech 2009

Babies

Whats the point?

我想我遇见了天使…

My Time Capsule

Nobody

Burst...

Wat the fuck...

Guys....Duuhhh~~~

My Lovely Dog

My sis Small Photo Shooting Section

Feeling

Tactics

五月天-天使 What a Nice song~!

走投无路

Bye bye....

Just Fuck it!!

Oh my god!!!!!

Wat an argue~

I dunoo~~!!

我的天使

后遗症

iM BACK~

不懂…

我想…

我做对了选择吗？

我那日的感受....

无题（一）

约在今天

一种心情 (一)

Moonstone Gemstone meaning:
passionate love that will fly you to the moon!!!